I somehow decided to re-read my diary today( The one I started when I got serious about God), and now I really wonder why I doubted what God said about my calling more than one and a half years ago. But before I say what I wanna say, I need to explain that I did not want to tell this to anyone, and the only persons who knows the entire story is one of my cousins and a close friend, and then I decided that this might possibly encourage someone out there who is thinking about their calling to press on into God's presence, so, let me start one and a half years back...
Ok, so there was Extreme Camp that my church organised in early december, and on the last day of camp, my youth pastor asked us to ask God to give us a nation. So I started praying and asking God which nation, and suddenly this word AFRICA flashed in my mind. Then after awhile my Pastor told us that some of us were going to China, and that she saw some blacks in the picture too. So in my mind I thinking: Hmm..Africa..dark skin.. And at that point of time I doubted whether it was just me or whether that word I saw was really from God. So in the bus back to Singapore I was praying to God to give me confirmation, that what I saw was from Him.
Well, one or two Saturdays after Extreme Camp, our cell experienced this mini revival, and it all started because one of the cell members then asked someone to pray for her after service. Our cell leader then told us to go to the room we usually went to for cell, and after awhile everyone gathered there including the girl that needed prayer and the girl who was praying for her. While they were praying, the rest of us started worshipping, and suddenly one of my friends came up to me and told me that she had a message for me, and that she could see me shepherding others to the Lord. After that someone else came up to me and told me that when she was praying for me, she saw me wearing a crown and sitting beside God, BUT before that I was gonna go through really rough times, and she even read me a verse which I stupidly forgot to remember, but I think it's somewhere in psalms or proverbs, and basically the verse was about how others were gonna trample over me and those kind of stuff:( I also remember her asking me whether I was ready, but at that point of time though I said yes but in my heart I wasn't fully prepared for what God has install for me. Well so basically I was crying like crazy, and after awhile different people just started praying for others etc, and people got slained and stuff. That day was really cool, and God's presence was just so strong within our cell:) Coincidence that this would happened after I prayed for confirmation? I don't think so:)
Well, after that day God gave me words and pictures about going forth to different nations at different times, the most recent being at leaders camp. Now that I know that my calling is somewhere in the mission field, I don't know where I need to go next.. is there some place where people go to train as missionaries? Hmm... but I believe that as long as I press into God's presence and not lose sight of my calling again, God will reveal more:) oh wells, gotta get some sleep if I wanna do well for elec history and e maths today...
Ok, so there was Extreme Camp that my church organised in early december, and on the last day of camp, my youth pastor asked us to ask God to give us a nation. So I started praying and asking God which nation, and suddenly this word AFRICA flashed in my mind. Then after awhile my Pastor told us that some of us were going to China, and that she saw some blacks in the picture too. So in my mind I thinking: Hmm..Africa..dark skin.. And at that point of time I doubted whether it was just me or whether that word I saw was really from God. So in the bus back to Singapore I was praying to God to give me confirmation, that what I saw was from Him.
Well, one or two Saturdays after Extreme Camp, our cell experienced this mini revival, and it all started because one of the cell members then asked someone to pray for her after service. Our cell leader then told us to go to the room we usually went to for cell, and after awhile everyone gathered there including the girl that needed prayer and the girl who was praying for her. While they were praying, the rest of us started worshipping, and suddenly one of my friends came up to me and told me that she had a message for me, and that she could see me shepherding others to the Lord. After that someone else came up to me and told me that when she was praying for me, she saw me wearing a crown and sitting beside God, BUT before that I was gonna go through really rough times, and she even read me a verse which I stupidly forgot to remember, but I think it's somewhere in psalms or proverbs, and basically the verse was about how others were gonna trample over me and those kind of stuff:( I also remember her asking me whether I was ready, but at that point of time though I said yes but in my heart I wasn't fully prepared for what God has install for me. Well so basically I was crying like crazy, and after awhile different people just started praying for others etc, and people got slained and stuff. That day was really cool, and God's presence was just so strong within our cell:) Coincidence that this would happened after I prayed for confirmation? I don't think so:)
Well, after that day God gave me words and pictures about going forth to different nations at different times, the most recent being at leaders camp. Now that I know that my calling is somewhere in the mission field, I don't know where I need to go next.. is there some place where people go to train as missionaries? Hmm... but I believe that as long as I press into God's presence and not lose sight of my calling again, God will reveal more:) oh wells, gotta get some sleep if I wanna do well for elec history and e maths today...
Sarah Wong
@ 12:22 AM