Yay! i could finally bang the piano just now:D Friday night is always the best, usually no ones at home:D haha, spent my four hour break at Ling e-e's house as usual, Rachel was at home!:D Hey Rae...man i really love your style of playing...so cool...its a Friday...its a friday...which mean tml's SATURDAY!! best day of the week! yay! Have a Microsoft Access test on monday...Lord please give me the DISCIPLINE is study hard for it:)
Last night before I went to sleep I was telling God how i didnt really feel Him that day...and..suddenly I sensed Him asking me to look up...and He asked me whether I could see that His rain was falling me...and just felt His peace rush over me once again...awesome....Lord...thank you...You will never cease to amaze me...Lord...please put in my heart a new song....In Jesus' Name i pray, Amen.
Last night before I went to sleep I was telling God how i didnt really feel Him that day...and..suddenly I sensed Him asking me to look up...and He asked me whether I could see that His rain was falling me...and just felt His peace rush over me once again...awesome....Lord...thank you...You will never cease to amaze me...Lord...please put in my heart a new song....In Jesus' Name i pray, Amen.
Sarah Wong
@ 7:32 PM
Its been exactly a month now since...I dont know whether you still read my blog but if u do, i wrote this poem for you....
I curled up in a corner,
my heart closed to Friendship
But you patiently waited,
knocking on the cold hard door.
I stood up, clothed in doubt and fear.
I opened the door an inch,
I knew I had found a true friend.
I let you in and embraced you,
You filled my heart with joy.
In our friendship a rare gem I saw.
Through fear and anxiety you cheered me on,
you guided me, bringing me deeper in The Way.
The early hours with you I treasured,
When I stumbled you picked me up and washed my wounds
I knew I had found a true friend.
Then that friendship I started to abuse.
Out of my tongue shot fiery arrows
that pierced you
I shot you
again and again.
Then upon realisation
of what I had done to you,
I turned cold in dismay
My head hung down in shame
For I knew I had struck down a true friend.
I wrote this poem for the sole purpose that i treasured our close friendship and I wanna let you know that you are a true friend.. and that I still love you so much.
I curled up in a corner,
my heart closed to Friendship
But you patiently waited,
knocking on the cold hard door.
I stood up, clothed in doubt and fear.
I opened the door an inch,
I knew I had found a true friend.
I let you in and embraced you,
You filled my heart with joy.
In our friendship a rare gem I saw.
Through fear and anxiety you cheered me on,
you guided me, bringing me deeper in The Way.
The early hours with you I treasured,
When I stumbled you picked me up and washed my wounds
I knew I had found a true friend.
Then that friendship I started to abuse.
Out of my tongue shot fiery arrows
that pierced you
I shot you
again and again.
Then upon realisation
of what I had done to you,
I turned cold in dismay
My head hung down in shame
For I knew I had struck down a true friend.
I wrote this poem for the sole purpose that i treasured our close friendship and I wanna let you know that you are a true friend.. and that I still love you so much.
Sarah Wong
@ 4:09 PM
Its Thursday! And all of us in 1A02 know what that means:D no school!slack day! whee:D hopefully next sem we get to have a day where there no lectures or anything again:) All the arrows have been shooting me recently...i only accepted one arrow, mua haha..i guess it's got to do with piorities...and..yeah i have other plans for my sem hols...go back to sitiawan to continue to do what God told me to do and also spend some time wif couzies...help out in church if they need help..intense banging of piano and spending time with God...so much to do:D yup...
i discovered from my tagboard that there were more ppl than i thought reading my blog...interesting...and i never knew Ps Ben would go around tagging ppl! so cool!:D This sat...im kindof scared about something...but will put that in God's hands...Lord, please help me not to say anything stupid or ridiculous or hurting or disrespectful...yup...can't wait for altar call! another powerpacked round!:D
oh man i love my bedroom slippers:D yes i know its insane to have bedroom slippers in hot and sunny Singapore but i saw these bedroom slippers in Sitiawan with a 3-D snoopy face on them and i just had to buy it:D so now when i wear them there's two dogs walking in front of me:D one day....my dream will finally come true and i will finally have a golden spaniel....one day...
Lord, I surrender all my hurts and worries at the cross right now...please let your blood wash over me and fill me with Your joy...i need Your strength...i love You Jesus...you're awesome:) In Jesus' name i pray, amen:)
i discovered from my tagboard that there were more ppl than i thought reading my blog...interesting...and i never knew Ps Ben would go around tagging ppl! so cool!:D This sat...im kindof scared about something...but will put that in God's hands...Lord, please help me not to say anything stupid or ridiculous or hurting or disrespectful...yup...can't wait for altar call! another powerpacked round!:D
oh man i love my bedroom slippers:D yes i know its insane to have bedroom slippers in hot and sunny Singapore but i saw these bedroom slippers in Sitiawan with a 3-D snoopy face on them and i just had to buy it:D so now when i wear them there's two dogs walking in front of me:D one day....my dream will finally come true and i will finally have a golden spaniel....one day...
Lord, I surrender all my hurts and worries at the cross right now...please let your blood wash over me and fill me with Your joy...i need Your strength...i love You Jesus...you're awesome:) In Jesus' name i pray, amen:)
Sarah Wong
@ 11:24 AM
Mixed up. Confused. Frustrated. Hurt. Its just getting worse...God, all I have is You...I dont know who else to turn to...and im not exaggerating...i look to my left, theres no one there, i look to my right, emptyness greets me, i look up, and then i see Your hand stretched towards mine, waiting to lift me up...Lord, take me to a place where no one else exists but You and me.In Jesus' name i pray, Amen.
Sarah Wong
@ 11:48 PM
Soccer rocks! yay...its fun...once u start to get the hang of it, its quite fun, er, skill wise, erm...i've alot of catching up to do...at least i wont embarrass myself so much when i have to play soccer in team games:D
Bro!!! Woah!!! You're amazing man! Your self portrait looks super real lah! I think if dad really used photo paper to print your pic, it'll be quite hard to tell the real and painted one apart:D wah how do u do it man? Its really good!!! Hope you win the competition:D i think you stand a very good chance...proud of you bro!! :D:D:D
Lord, let Your will be done in my life:)
Bro!!! Woah!!! You're amazing man! Your self portrait looks super real lah! I think if dad really used photo paper to print your pic, it'll be quite hard to tell the real and painted one apart:D wah how do u do it man? Its really good!!! Hope you win the competition:D i think you stand a very good chance...proud of you bro!! :D:D:D
Lord, let Your will be done in my life:)
Sarah Wong
@ 10:41 PM
Im very confused and mixed up rite now...God, when You said that there will be more to come, did u mean this? or is it just my imagination running wild? But God...thats something that i tresure so much...u told me to stay on and i did...but it seems like...God You know how much i treasure that...You how much i wanna impact them...thats why i stayed back...cos i was not done with touching their lives...the vision You gave me...are You gonna take it away? But Lord, You promised, and I know You dont go back on promises...Lord, let Your will be done...whatever happens, whether or not im at fault, let Your will, and only Your will be done..cos then at least my mind will be at rest cos I know You always do what's best for me...You alone understand what im going through, You know me best...Lord...please hold my hand every step of the way...i need You so so much...thank you for being there all the time..thank you for being there when i have no one else to turn to..thank you for being there when no one else seems to truly care...thank you Daddy...I love you so much...oh! and happy belated Father's day:)
Sarah Wong
@ 12:21 PM
Well, back from Malaysia! im a bit disappointed with myself...i didnt do much to reach out to po-po this time...i guess i was scared..when i finally had the chance to talk to her..i was afraid to talk to her much in Chinese...maybe its cos since young, ppl have been laughing at the way i speak Chinese..they say my accent is funny and everything( ok i admit that is kindof true)..so everytime i speak Chinese i tend to stammer cos im so conscious of what im saying...this is bad..ppl please please dont follow my example...i need to learn ALOT bout trusting in God still...then i was praying to God bout it, and i saw this pic where God was slashing down the trees in the jungle and i was following behind Him, and i sensed Him saying that He was clearing the path for me to share the good news with po-po..that He will slash away all the hinderances one by one in her life till she was opened to recieve the gospel....and..wow..God..everytime i go back...give me a chance to bring her one step closer to You...my mum told me that she shared with po-po bout my miraculous O level results and how God guided me through...and Po-po agreed that that could only be God at work...so, well, its one step closer..she still has doubts...but nothing is impossible with God!:D
haha, i discovered where my parents go in the mornings everytime we go back to Sitiawan! cos when i was younger i would play with Eve, Jenny and A-Pat the whole day...haha, this time i followed my mum to breakfast( curry laksa mee is fantastic as usual) and then i discovered the joy of goin to the market! haha! cos i discovered that Sitiawan markets have trinkets which u cant find in Singapore! there are cute scruchies...fascinating keychains..cool bracelets....and the most unique earrings! hah! goodness, im still amazed at how it happened...i got my ears pierced! and i never thought about it till the day itself! cos Mum, Ing-e-e, King e-e, Deb and I were looking at some earrings at one of the market booths...and the earrings were really unique ..the plastic kind...and so cheap! Then i saw this tiny doggy earrings, and of cos i went: so cute!!! and then i saw these tiny toothpaste earrings and i was oohing and ahhing all over and my mum was beside me, haha, then she said: "you want to wear the earrings, you go and have your ears pierced lor..." but i was hesitant cos i was afriad that if i pierced my ears and didnt wear any earrings in the end it would just close and it would be wasted, so i asked Ing-e-e how much it cost to have my ears pierced in Malaysia, and she said not to worry, it only cost 12 Ringgit..then Deb( cos she was getting her ears pierced in the afternoon) was insisting and everyone was trying to talk me into it so i finally gave in since it only cos about 6 Singapore dollars! so i got my ears pierced to together with Deb..haha, quite an unforgetable experience! haha!:D
Bredon Kor kor is getting married! Whoo!! soon we have more to add to our couz collection, i hope:D (so far we have twenty over, going to hit thirty soon if i remember correctly...)
Woah, today's altar call was POWER-PACKED!!! Paster Benjamin Chew was speaking, and he gave a really good altar call..whoa i was trying to follow after him together with a few others, holding on to the blankets and trying not to step on the people that had been slained, so fun!!!! Woah in the end the helpers had to stack the chairs to make enough space for the people so that they wont fall on each other and on the chairs! haha! so cool...and guess what? next week is Reverend James Singh who's speaking! another round man! Whooo!! Awesome! God, i pray that You'll move so powerfully again as You did today in Megalife! In Jesus' Name i pray, Amen! :D:D:D
haha, i discovered where my parents go in the mornings everytime we go back to Sitiawan! cos when i was younger i would play with Eve, Jenny and A-Pat the whole day...haha, this time i followed my mum to breakfast( curry laksa mee is fantastic as usual) and then i discovered the joy of goin to the market! haha! cos i discovered that Sitiawan markets have trinkets which u cant find in Singapore! there are cute scruchies...fascinating keychains..cool bracelets....and the most unique earrings! hah! goodness, im still amazed at how it happened...i got my ears pierced! and i never thought about it till the day itself! cos Mum, Ing-e-e, King e-e, Deb and I were looking at some earrings at one of the market booths...and the earrings were really unique ..the plastic kind...and so cheap! Then i saw this tiny doggy earrings, and of cos i went: so cute!!! and then i saw these tiny toothpaste earrings and i was oohing and ahhing all over and my mum was beside me, haha, then she said: "you want to wear the earrings, you go and have your ears pierced lor..." but i was hesitant cos i was afriad that if i pierced my ears and didnt wear any earrings in the end it would just close and it would be wasted, so i asked Ing-e-e how much it cost to have my ears pierced in Malaysia, and she said not to worry, it only cost 12 Ringgit..then Deb( cos she was getting her ears pierced in the afternoon) was insisting and everyone was trying to talk me into it so i finally gave in since it only cos about 6 Singapore dollars! so i got my ears pierced to together with Deb..haha, quite an unforgetable experience! haha!:D
Bredon Kor kor is getting married! Whoo!! soon we have more to add to our couz collection, i hope:D (so far we have twenty over, going to hit thirty soon if i remember correctly...)
Woah, today's altar call was POWER-PACKED!!! Paster Benjamin Chew was speaking, and he gave a really good altar call..whoa i was trying to follow after him together with a few others, holding on to the blankets and trying not to step on the people that had been slained, so fun!!!! Woah in the end the helpers had to stack the chairs to make enough space for the people so that they wont fall on each other and on the chairs! haha! so cool...and guess what? next week is Reverend James Singh who's speaking! another round man! Whooo!! Awesome! God, i pray that You'll move so powerfully again as You did today in Megalife! In Jesus' Name i pray, Amen! :D:D:D
Sarah Wong
@ 12:53 AM
haha! my 100th post!:D Cool.....hmm, leaving tonight...seems like a mission trip even though its supposed to be a visit to my relatives..cos i have to get spiritually geared up for this trip..ITS TIME TO CLAIM SOULS IN JESUS' NAME!!!! WHOOOOOO!!! TIME TO WHACK THE DEVIL THE THE HEAD!!!!!!!!TIME TO FREE THE CAPTIVES AND UNLOCK THEIR CHAINS!!!!! TIME TO GO INTO SPIRITUAL WARFARE!!!!!! COS MY GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD AND WILL ALWAYS BE!!!!!!! :D:D:D Lord i pray that u prepare us Lord....remove all form of fear...cos in Your presence unholy fear does not exist...Lord, u know the situation over there...u know how the devil has tried to get at po-po and gong-gong through different ways...you know the evil that has tried to be done on them...and on my relatives too...im not gonna mention people..but God you know who...and im more upset than angry at these people...Lord, please open their eyes and deliever them from the clutches of the evil one..help them to realise that what they do is not at all right and is hurting so many people.....In Jesus name, Lord i pray that Your mighty hand will move so powerfully in Sitiawan...protect all of us Lord...u know what's going on there...now i know why u gave me the key of watchfulness...Lord help me to use that key and guard myself against the evil one...and God i pray for po-po and gong-gong...Lord...move in them..I pray that Your powerful Name will be proclaimed there...I know that faith moves mountains...Lord consume me with Your fire...i wanna burn so brightly for You over there...Use me Lord...and thank you for your sweet presence:) In Jesus' name I pray, Amen
Sarah Wong
@ 1:42 PM
YAY!!!! IM GOING TO MALAYSIA!!! SITIAWAN!! :D:D:D wheee...Po-po and gong gong, here i comeeee.... Jenny i cant wait to see you again!!!!( miss you so much dude) :D
Okie, so maybe its just a quick visit back to Sitiawan for two days, thursday and friday, but you know what? i have been praying for this to happen..cos before my break i actually prayed for God to make it possible for me to go back to Sitiawan...Po-po's health condition is getting worse...and Po-po and Gong-gong arent saved yet...God has placed such a burden in my heart to see them saved, especially Po-po...and that day at prayer meeting Jeneatte asked us to think of a person and claim their salvation in Christ, and you know what? i'm 100 percent sure that i'll see both Po-Po and Gong Gong in heaven...cos my God hears and answers prayers! and at Saturday service, Pastor Ken Teo was talking about asking in JESUS' name, cos His name is powerful, and when u do that, you'll see miracles happening, the sick being healed, the demon-possessed being set free...and..God I believe...that You will use me to be a blessing to Po-Po and Gong- Gong, God I believe that when I lay hands on Po-po is JESUS' name, she will be healed cos You are a God of miracles, and God i believe that in Your timing, Po-po and Gong gong will accept you into their lives, Lord I believe...and in You i put my whole trust..sure, there's gonna be a language barrier, but NOTHING is impossible for God...Lord i pray that u'll use Mummy, Ing-e-e, King e-e and I to reach out to po-po and gong gong on this trip and prepare us to see Your hand move so powerfully....You are AWESOME Lord..Use us Lord...Thank you God:D
Prayer meeting on Friday was awesome, very spirit-led:D:D:D prayer meetings are getting better and better man! Whoo! and Saturday service! Power-stuff man! Pastor Ken Teo gave a power-packed message and a really awesome altar call...whoo!!! haha, and God is so good! He knew i acty badly wanted to respond to the altar call but i couldnt cos i was helping out during altar call....then when Joachim was pronouncing the benidiction Pastor Ken suddenly laid his hands on me! He didnt pray for me but God moved very strongly in me...haha, woah i felt God's power run through me so powerfully...so awesome man....Thank you Jesus! Whooo!!!:D:D:D
* Sings the going-back-to-Sitiawan song and goes high*
Okie, so maybe its just a quick visit back to Sitiawan for two days, thursday and friday, but you know what? i have been praying for this to happen..cos before my break i actually prayed for God to make it possible for me to go back to Sitiawan...Po-po's health condition is getting worse...and Po-po and Gong-gong arent saved yet...God has placed such a burden in my heart to see them saved, especially Po-po...and that day at prayer meeting Jeneatte asked us to think of a person and claim their salvation in Christ, and you know what? i'm 100 percent sure that i'll see both Po-Po and Gong Gong in heaven...cos my God hears and answers prayers! and at Saturday service, Pastor Ken Teo was talking about asking in JESUS' name, cos His name is powerful, and when u do that, you'll see miracles happening, the sick being healed, the demon-possessed being set free...and..God I believe...that You will use me to be a blessing to Po-Po and Gong- Gong, God I believe that when I lay hands on Po-po is JESUS' name, she will be healed cos You are a God of miracles, and God i believe that in Your timing, Po-po and Gong gong will accept you into their lives, Lord I believe...and in You i put my whole trust..sure, there's gonna be a language barrier, but NOTHING is impossible for God...Lord i pray that u'll use Mummy, Ing-e-e, King e-e and I to reach out to po-po and gong gong on this trip and prepare us to see Your hand move so powerfully....You are AWESOME Lord..Use us Lord...Thank you God:D
Prayer meeting on Friday was awesome, very spirit-led:D:D:D prayer meetings are getting better and better man! Whoo! and Saturday service! Power-stuff man! Pastor Ken Teo gave a power-packed message and a really awesome altar call...whoo!!! haha, and God is so good! He knew i acty badly wanted to respond to the altar call but i couldnt cos i was helping out during altar call....then when Joachim was pronouncing the benidiction Pastor Ken suddenly laid his hands on me! He didnt pray for me but God moved very strongly in me...haha, woah i felt God's power run through me so powerfully...so awesome man....Thank you Jesus! Whooo!!!:D:D:D
* Sings the going-back-to-Sitiawan song and goes high*
Sarah Wong
@ 6:53 PM
Lord You never cease to amaze me...I'm still quite stunned at what just happened just now...happy-stunned...no, wait, more like exhilarated-stunned...could it be? Could this be the turning point in our relationship? The relationship that died more than 5 years ago? could it finally be that he actually wants to be my friend? God, he invited me to hang out with his friends! Well okay, his friends are prob lots of my friends too since they're megalifers..but... After all those times where...but anyway that was the past...and..if you actually read my blog....i want you to know that i've forgiven you...and im sorry i act so jerkish sometimes...i just wanna be your friend...more than that, i wanna be that sister thats always there for you..to comfort you when youre down and pick you up when u feel small...i wanna be a real sis..not a stranger living in the same house as you...Lord I pray you continue to grow this friendship...Lord you know how much i long to be so much closer to him..i love him Lord...so much..and i dont wanna hurt him anymore... :)
Today was another slack day...got about doing my reflection paper for FP...still need to improve on it..went to the dentist in the afternoon...its in the city, next to Funan Centre...dad brought me there( thanks dad!), the dentist specialises in braces..today was my first appointment..so its quite official, im getting my braces somewhere in early August..i shall get multi-colour braces! yay! ok i better not, haha..maybe i'll get multicolours in the festive season of december or something, haha...i shall get blue!:D yay blue rocks...wish they had glow-in-the-dark ones...then when theres a black out theres one more reason to smile, haha:D
today God spoke to me through an old comic-magazine...its a magazine called 'Tammy" dated 1984..haha yeah its old..but the stories are quite cool to read for fun..if uve been to UK then maybe u saw it ten years ago..cos my mum bought a whole collection of that type of magazine when we went there when i was 4...anyways, i was reading a story, 'Mask for Melissa', bout a girl who gets spotted by this guy who says she has great talent in acting and she goes to his school to learn how to act..and in the process discovers shes there more because of her looks than her talent...then she gets into an accident and is scarred..she cant bear to look at herself and hides behind a mask and even changes her name and gets a job somewhere else...in the end she removes it in public in order to save someone's life and discover that her scars are gone...
Well, its quite a long story, but thats the brief summary..and how did God speak through the story? Well its to do with rejection. Imagine youre very popular and everthing..and suddenly someone rejects you...maybe a few someones rejects you..maybe your loved ones start to reject you..and it leaves such a deep scar in your heart...and you start trying to hide your rejection...a mask...a cover-up...outside your seem fine..you start pretending that you're alright, you start to live a pretend life...you feign cheerfulness in front of others..but at night..when everyone else is gone..you take off that mask and you start to weep..you cry out but no one seems to hear you...Ever felt that way? Well i have..i felt so rejected by my own family...my friends...and it took serveral altar calls over a period of more than two years before i finally released the last of my rejection to God...and when i finally let all of it go...that joy just came over me..it doesnt matter what others think of me, i am after all an alien living in this land that God has put me in to do what he has called me to do..its what God thinks of me..cos in the end, He is all that matters..What im trying to drive across is that..everyone has a choice...you can coninue to dwell in your hurt and feel rejected your whole life...or you can surrender your rejection to God...and once you've done that..God can amaze you in ways that are beyond this world..Just remember..Jesus is not so interested on how you appear in front of others...He's more interested in what's going on in your heart...He's more interested in what's going on deep down inside where no one else can see...and unless you surrender what's inside to Him, he cant give you that peace and joy that you long for....
Just something that God made me think about: Soot and ashes cannot be used for anything..in fact it causes pollution on earth..only when there's a flame buring brightly for God can Jesus use it to draw all men to His saving grace....God please use me for your glory....
Today was another slack day...got about doing my reflection paper for FP...still need to improve on it..went to the dentist in the afternoon...its in the city, next to Funan Centre...dad brought me there( thanks dad!), the dentist specialises in braces..today was my first appointment..so its quite official, im getting my braces somewhere in early August..i shall get multi-colour braces! yay! ok i better not, haha..maybe i'll get multicolours in the festive season of december or something, haha...i shall get blue!:D yay blue rocks...wish they had glow-in-the-dark ones...then when theres a black out theres one more reason to smile, haha:D
today God spoke to me through an old comic-magazine...its a magazine called 'Tammy" dated 1984..haha yeah its old..but the stories are quite cool to read for fun..if uve been to UK then maybe u saw it ten years ago..cos my mum bought a whole collection of that type of magazine when we went there when i was 4...anyways, i was reading a story, 'Mask for Melissa', bout a girl who gets spotted by this guy who says she has great talent in acting and she goes to his school to learn how to act..and in the process discovers shes there more because of her looks than her talent...then she gets into an accident and is scarred..she cant bear to look at herself and hides behind a mask and even changes her name and gets a job somewhere else...in the end she removes it in public in order to save someone's life and discover that her scars are gone...
Well, its quite a long story, but thats the brief summary..and how did God speak through the story? Well its to do with rejection. Imagine youre very popular and everthing..and suddenly someone rejects you...maybe a few someones rejects you..maybe your loved ones start to reject you..and it leaves such a deep scar in your heart...and you start trying to hide your rejection...a mask...a cover-up...outside your seem fine..you start pretending that you're alright, you start to live a pretend life...you feign cheerfulness in front of others..but at night..when everyone else is gone..you take off that mask and you start to weep..you cry out but no one seems to hear you...Ever felt that way? Well i have..i felt so rejected by my own family...my friends...and it took serveral altar calls over a period of more than two years before i finally released the last of my rejection to God...and when i finally let all of it go...that joy just came over me..it doesnt matter what others think of me, i am after all an alien living in this land that God has put me in to do what he has called me to do..its what God thinks of me..cos in the end, He is all that matters..What im trying to drive across is that..everyone has a choice...you can coninue to dwell in your hurt and feel rejected your whole life...or you can surrender your rejection to God...and once you've done that..God can amaze you in ways that are beyond this world..Just remember..Jesus is not so interested on how you appear in front of others...He's more interested in what's going on in your heart...He's more interested in what's going on deep down inside where no one else can see...and unless you surrender what's inside to Him, he cant give you that peace and joy that you long for....
Just something that God made me think about: Soot and ashes cannot be used for anything..in fact it causes pollution on earth..only when there's a flame buring brightly for God can Jesus use it to draw all men to His saving grace....God please use me for your glory....
Sarah Wong
@ 12:46 AM
Ouch. God it hurts. It really does. And its not going away. God i need You so much... all i have is You...everyone else has their own problems and worries...everyone else is too busy to listen..and i guess i dont wanna talk to them bout how i feel and all...what can they do about the situation anyway? Its in Your hands, and i know that that is the safest place anything can be in. Lord help me to surrender COMPLETELY to You....i love You Dad..
These few days have been slacking quite a lot...and doing projects...and slacking somemore...and banging the piano! whoo! finally have a chance to bang properly! But its not long enough...:( start banging for bout 15 min then people start to come home and i stop banging cos i know i cant focus on God with so many ppl around. Oh man..banging the piano.. so awesome man..to lose myself in God's presence...sortof composed a song in my mind while banging the piano...no intro though, just the bridge and the chorus..Lord put in my heart a new song...remember the times in the midst of my exams last year..and God started to put songs in my heart...God...u are seriously amazing...I shall write a poem one day..maybe during this hols...havent written one for a long long time..since before Os ended..maybe cos Lit lessons ended and i just didnt have mood to compose anymore..poems rock! especially when ure able to break them apart and understand the second or even third layers...its the same for prose..i guess that why i still love lit so much...to finally understand the real and deeper meaning of a certain text..it brings about that satisfaction...miss lit lessons by Mrs Tan.. :(
Well, time to do QT...Thank you Jesus for just being there:)
These few days have been slacking quite a lot...and doing projects...and slacking somemore...and banging the piano! whoo! finally have a chance to bang properly! But its not long enough...:( start banging for bout 15 min then people start to come home and i stop banging cos i know i cant focus on God with so many ppl around. Oh man..banging the piano.. so awesome man..to lose myself in God's presence...sortof composed a song in my mind while banging the piano...no intro though, just the bridge and the chorus..Lord put in my heart a new song...remember the times in the midst of my exams last year..and God started to put songs in my heart...God...u are seriously amazing...I shall write a poem one day..maybe during this hols...havent written one for a long long time..since before Os ended..maybe cos Lit lessons ended and i just didnt have mood to compose anymore..poems rock! especially when ure able to break them apart and understand the second or even third layers...its the same for prose..i guess that why i still love lit so much...to finally understand the real and deeper meaning of a certain text..it brings about that satisfaction...miss lit lessons by Mrs Tan.. :(
Well, time to do QT...Thank you Jesus for just being there:)
Sarah Wong
@ 12:40 AM
Today's service was good..heh heh i woke up really late...yeah i know i lack discipline in that area..but anyways, God started to speak to me during worship...and...yes God, i believe...that you can use me, a tiny nobody in today's society, to lead people into Your kingdom, cos You yourself has anointed me with Your power do do the impossible..Lord use my hands...use me God..that's my cry for as long as i live...that You'll use me for Your will to be done..
Sermon was good too..by Senior Pastor William Lee from Bartley Christian Church..it got me thinking bout how the sermon was linked to ushering..time to build lives man! time to shape and transform young lives so that God can use all of us! To my fellow ushers out there! its time to rise up people! time to run back to the heart of worship and build ourselves up on His word and His promises! Time to get out of our comfort zone! and the time is NOW:D Fellow ushers i pray that today we will all catch that heartbeat of God, that urgency that is rising to go all out for Jesus in the way that we serve Him, in the way that we usher in His presence...believe that He is calling us to greater heights, cos i believe He is...whoo!!! :D:D:D
hmm, tml goin for cenversational E training by Mr Raymond Kwan...sounds interesting..amazing how God can move in typical convos...just like that day in school..haha that was really cool man..God u never cease to amaze me... :D
Sermon was good too..by Senior Pastor William Lee from Bartley Christian Church..it got me thinking bout how the sermon was linked to ushering..time to build lives man! time to shape and transform young lives so that God can use all of us! To my fellow ushers out there! its time to rise up people! time to run back to the heart of worship and build ourselves up on His word and His promises! Time to get out of our comfort zone! and the time is NOW:D Fellow ushers i pray that today we will all catch that heartbeat of God, that urgency that is rising to go all out for Jesus in the way that we serve Him, in the way that we usher in His presence...believe that He is calling us to greater heights, cos i believe He is...whoo!!! :D:D:D
hmm, tml goin for cenversational E training by Mr Raymond Kwan...sounds interesting..amazing how God can move in typical convos...just like that day in school..haha that was really cool man..God u never cease to amaze me... :D
Sarah Wong
@ 3:23 PM
yay the hols are finally here!:) wow 1 term passed so fast....
One day im gonna be numb to emotional pain...good or bad? im not very sure...hmm...i wonder how Jesus dealt with the pain that he had to go through...i mean, not just the physical pain, but the emotional pain..imagine the people you created so lovingly rejecting you...how would you feel? goodness...See, thats why Jesus is the perfect example to follow...he's been through what we are going through...
Lord im living for You and You alone...Jesus youre all that matters...only You and You alone know exactly what im going through right now..and..wow if i didnt have a relationship with You i would have jumped off the building a long time ago..Thank you Lord..for being there 24/7...for being in me..for embracing me and telling me how much You love me despite all that ive done...
Lord please help me in my ministry...help me to be so in tune with You...all i wanna do is to be a pleasing sacrifice when i serve You...God You deserve my very best and my all..help me to learn Lord..Thank you Jesus for giving me that strength today...:)
That day God made me realised something...its about the nails that went through Jesus' hand...i realised that..cos of the cruelty that the people showed on Him...which is what the nails could represent, Jesus' love was able to flow through, which could be represented by His blood...and, what im trying to say is that sometimes God can do amazing things through the situations that you consider to be horrid and hopeless and everything...:) so the bottom line? TRUST. put all your trust in God that He will not only pull you through whatever situation that youre goin through but also do something amazing through it:D yup...cos God is an AWESOME God:D:D:D yay:D:D:D
One day im gonna be numb to emotional pain...good or bad? im not very sure...hmm...i wonder how Jesus dealt with the pain that he had to go through...i mean, not just the physical pain, but the emotional pain..imagine the people you created so lovingly rejecting you...how would you feel? goodness...See, thats why Jesus is the perfect example to follow...he's been through what we are going through...
Lord im living for You and You alone...Jesus youre all that matters...only You and You alone know exactly what im going through right now..and..wow if i didnt have a relationship with You i would have jumped off the building a long time ago..Thank you Lord..for being there 24/7...for being in me..for embracing me and telling me how much You love me despite all that ive done...
Lord please help me in my ministry...help me to be so in tune with You...all i wanna do is to be a pleasing sacrifice when i serve You...God You deserve my very best and my all..help me to learn Lord..Thank you Jesus for giving me that strength today...:)
That day God made me realised something...its about the nails that went through Jesus' hand...i realised that..cos of the cruelty that the people showed on Him...which is what the nails could represent, Jesus' love was able to flow through, which could be represented by His blood...and, what im trying to say is that sometimes God can do amazing things through the situations that you consider to be horrid and hopeless and everything...:) so the bottom line? TRUST. put all your trust in God that He will not only pull you through whatever situation that youre goin through but also do something amazing through it:D yup...cos God is an AWESOME God:D:D:D yay:D:D:D
Sarah Wong
@ 12:07 AM
Yay I found a way to stretch my fingers abit wider, muahaha:D haha, but according to my piano teacher i wont see the results till 2 months later...hmm...the method kindof makes sense..shall try it out:D Having an itch to bang the piano now...but its way past ten, so i shall spare everyone's ears..
Oh Lord it hurts even more now...it just hurts so much...oh Lord please take away that pain...i just wanna rest in Your presence...to feel so secure in Your embrace...Oh Lord i feel like screaming..i seriously do..
Today God gave me the key of watchfulness...I went to school early today cos Dad could fetch me..and i was sitting outside the main door to the classrooms cos it was still locked...so i started doin QT..then i closed my eyes and i saw an eagle land right in front of me...and it held out its wing and in it lay another key...the key of watchfulness...thats quite a scary key...as in, it makes you realise so many things that youre doin that are not pleasing in God's sight...and...well it can really break you at times...but who said that the price to follow Jesus was easy anyway? Its time to take my stand for Jesus and whack the devil in the head!whoo! :D Oh Lord i pray that You will continue to keep breaking me...thank you Lord...for just being with me all this while and being there to comfort me... You are indeed my bestest best friend:):):) In Jesus' name i pray, Amen:)
Oh Lord it hurts even more now...it just hurts so much...oh Lord please take away that pain...i just wanna rest in Your presence...to feel so secure in Your embrace...Oh Lord i feel like screaming..i seriously do..
Today God gave me the key of watchfulness...I went to school early today cos Dad could fetch me..and i was sitting outside the main door to the classrooms cos it was still locked...so i started doin QT..then i closed my eyes and i saw an eagle land right in front of me...and it held out its wing and in it lay another key...the key of watchfulness...thats quite a scary key...as in, it makes you realise so many things that youre doin that are not pleasing in God's sight...and...well it can really break you at times...but who said that the price to follow Jesus was easy anyway? Its time to take my stand for Jesus and whack the devil in the head!whoo! :D Oh Lord i pray that You will continue to keep breaking me...thank you Lord...for just being with me all this while and being there to comfort me... You are indeed my bestest best friend:):):) In Jesus' name i pray, Amen:)
Sarah Wong
@ 11:22 PM
Ahhhhhh.....just heard from Merrill that night service was awesome...oh man...how i wish i could have gone...just to spend the whole night dwelling in God's presence...must do it later...as in, spend time dwelling in His presence...i know that He's not done with me..haha, but as Joachim told all of us the night before, God's never done with us:D hmm...wish i could bang the piano more often...as in, bang all the worship songs and not just play what i have to practise...thing is that when i reach home usually theres already ppl at home and all so its really hard to concentrate on worshipping God...but when im at home alone...man those are the best worship times...where i just close my eyes and ask God to just give me worship songs...and then i just whack as the spirit leads...song after song after song...whoooo...
ok why am i blogging at 1+am when i just blogged earlier? cos im studying...study study study study...Zzzzzzzzz....haiz, test on wednesday...kindof scared..Lord please give me the strength to study properly and do well in the test:D and Lord please help me not to fall asleep when i study:) Thank you:D In Jesus' Name I pray, Amen:)
ok why am i blogging at 1+am when i just blogged earlier? cos im studying...study study study study...Zzzzzzzzz....haiz, test on wednesday...kindof scared..Lord please give me the strength to study properly and do well in the test:D and Lord please help me not to fall asleep when i study:) Thank you:D In Jesus' Name I pray, Amen:)
Sarah Wong
@ 1:41 AM
Haiz...really wanted to go back to ldr's camp tonight.. :( but..argh..oh welly..God please please please let ldrs camp be in poly hols next year Lord...yesterday was interesting...i couldnt concentrate in the morning during camp cos of something that happened and i felt really bad cos i knew it was my fault and if the matter wasnt solved i would be toast...so i was kindof miserable in the morning...then during the afternoon session God told me to stop worrying and that everything had been taken care of...and true enough i found out later that everything was taken care of..whew..God really met and dealt with me yesterday during the services...awesome man... and one picure that i saw was of me and a man i presume is Jesus...and in my hand was this crystal glass container thingy which i have no idea how to decribe...haha...but it looked really pretty and beautiful..and i was holding it and God stretched out His hand to take it from me..and when i gave it to Him He took it and put it in this thing that looked like a safety deposit box..and i sensed Him saying this to me: 'Sarah..when the time is right I will give this precious gift back to you..' and..wow..oh Lord let it be true..everything You told me..you know how much i valued that friendship..that closeness and everything..God...one day..when the time is right...God You know that i dont wanna lose her...You know how much i still love her as a friend...and..oh Lord it just seems so weird now..talking to her and everything...this barrier thats just there...but God please just help me to submit to You with a heart of obedience..Lord help me to stop wallowing in my sorrow..it just that...right now its just still so difficult...cant get the whole thing out of my mind..argh..sigh..help me to know that..no matter what...You still love me Lord...that vision You gave me...of the golden locket You placed in my hand with the words 'Jesus Loves Me' inscribed on it..oh Lord i need your strength Lord...and Your grace and mercy...Lord thank you for all that u've done in me during that one day in camp...Lord i pray that You will continue to break me..thank you Lord..In Jesus Name i pray, Amen:)
Sarah Wong
@ 9:04 PM
Wow. now i know the power of God's joy...amazing man...how His joy in me can make such a difference...This joy can fill me and overwhelm me to the point where i can just smile and laugh go hyper despite what im going through...and my actions are genuine...they arent forced..they arent a mask that i pull over, but its the joy that God put in me that causes me to wanna express it...thank you Lord..for giving me such a deep sense of peace...God i know that its gonna be tough and all...but God i pray that everytime i feel so alone...so lost...so burdened...Lord i pray that u just fill me up with that joy...so that there will be so much peace within me...that enables me to just cast all my cares unto You and worship you wholeheartedly...yay:D:D:D
Today at 8am im supposed to reach Harbourfront Centre! yay!:D why? cos its the start of MEGALIFE LEADERS CAMP!!!!!WHOOOO!!!! wow i sense that God's really gonna move very mightily in this camp...really a pity i cant go for the full one:( why dosent poly hols start a week earlier??? sigh...:( oh welly,will try to convince my parents to let me go for monday night....heh heh...hmm...my expectations for this camp...even though im not going for the full one...i guess its really to grow so much closer to God...to learn to be even more sensitive to the spirit to listen and OBEY everything that God speaks to me about:) and to of course be a better leader...oh ya! and to learn to trust so much in Him...that i may soar on His wings...God you know that deep down in me it still hurts so much...in this camp Lord i pray that i'll be so in tune with You Lord...to listen to what u have to tell me...oh ya! and Lord please reveal even more of my calling to me during camp Lord....thank you Jesus:D In Jesus name I pray, Amen:)
Today at 8am im supposed to reach Harbourfront Centre! yay!:D why? cos its the start of MEGALIFE LEADERS CAMP!!!!!WHOOOO!!!! wow i sense that God's really gonna move very mightily in this camp...really a pity i cant go for the full one:( why dosent poly hols start a week earlier??? sigh...:( oh welly,will try to convince my parents to let me go for monday night....heh heh...hmm...my expectations for this camp...even though im not going for the full one...i guess its really to grow so much closer to God...to learn to be even more sensitive to the spirit to listen and OBEY everything that God speaks to me about:) and to of course be a better leader...oh ya! and to learn to trust so much in Him...that i may soar on His wings...God you know that deep down in me it still hurts so much...in this camp Lord i pray that i'll be so in tune with You Lord...to listen to what u have to tell me...oh ya! and Lord please reveal even more of my calling to me during camp Lord....thank you Jesus:D In Jesus name I pray, Amen:)
Sarah Wong
@ 2:35 AM
God please take away the pain...it doesnt seem to be going away..it was especially bad after ushers L cell today..i almost cried in front of all the strangers at Macs..of course i held everything back...i didnt know how i was gonna survive Highlife cell which was later...then all of a sudden this sense of peace just hit me...and i felt God saying to me:' You're not going through this alone..I am with you..' and that joy just came rushing over me..that no matter what happened, i still had Jesus...and He is holding my hand every step of the way..but then..at night..when everyone else has gone to sleep and im still up...thats when it hits me really hard...i just cant forgot all those times..all the crazy and silly moments..where i would go so high she had to drag me down abit..all the stuff that she did for me..without even me telling her...cos she knew me so well..and now..sometimes i dont even dare to talk to her anymore..cos when i do it just hurts even more..oh God...fill up that emptyness in me with Your everlasting love Lord..the night before God asked me to stretch out my hand..i did and i closed my eyes at the same time...and as i did so i saw a key being placed in my hand..and on the key was the word 'thankfulness'...oh Lord help me to praise you when i just feel so down Lord..cos theres so much to be thankful for..God i need You...i need your strength..and God please continue to break me...thank you Lord:)
Sarah Wong
@ 3:35 AM