Ok. That's it. Its time to stop being childish. Time to stop being stupidly crazy if that craziness isnt for God. Cos im a leader and im supposed to lead by example. I know a lot of ppl out there think its strange that im actually a leader when they see me acting so crazy and childish. So im gonna put a stop to it. No more. And cos i love God so much...im willing to make that sacrifice..Lord, help me to change...from the inside out...God you know why i act the way I do...cos thats my escape route from feeling stressed and lousy... And i know thats not the correct escape route. Please God...help me to change...i need You more than ever...
Something Cindy said at cell last week really struck me...she told us that..she loves God so much that she does not want to get involved in BGR anymore..and that made me wonder....HOW MUCH DO I ACTUALLY LOVE GOD??? and i guess that loving God..has to be to the point where you are willing to give your whole life up to Him...so that nothing else can try to take you away from His presence..cos you are so in love with Him... :)
Something Cindy said at cell last week really struck me...she told us that..she loves God so much that she does not want to get involved in BGR anymore..and that made me wonder....HOW MUCH DO I ACTUALLY LOVE GOD??? and i guess that loving God..has to be to the point where you are willing to give your whole life up to Him...so that nothing else can try to take you away from His presence..cos you are so in love with Him... :)
Sarah Wong
@ 2:29 PM
Today was another tough day...God i know i didnt give my best while serving and I'm sorry...I'm sorry for disapointing You...just had too many things on my mind...tried to surrender them but didnt have time to think through it before i served cos i was doing something else before joining the ushers...and..basically i messed up...WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???!?!? Everytime i serve I'll mess up in some way....i guess i know the reason...its becaused i get looked down on so often...everything i do..ppl seem to think i cant do it..i wont be able to do it well...everytime i do something i seem to have done it wrong..till i am so afraid of getting scolded and put down again that i just loose that confidence..Even though i know that God gave me the confidence i need...i just loose it...cos im too afraid of doing something wrong that that fear actually makes it worse...it sound quite stupid but sad to say thats the truth...and its driving me crazy..im fine when there isnt any so-called authority figures around to see my actions..cos they're not around to scold me...but everytime there's someone with higher-up authority around..im at a loss of what to do and say..cos that fear just sets in and makes me feel that everything i say and do will make me look like an idiot cos i'll end up getting scolded or stared at weirdly. Its really not their fault cos I'm born 151cm tall at 17 years and small in size and insignificant in the eyes of ppl. But you know what? im happy about that. Cos i know that every time ppl actually notice me..its cos they notice God in me....
But I know that as long as i continue to place my trust in Him and perservere...i'll be able to overcome this fear...cos my God can do anything...today God gave me an interesting vision..its about these syringes that came rushing towards me..and when they came and peirced me..they began to draw my blood..drawing out my strength..my life...and then..Jesus comes..He starts to heal those wounds and gives me a cup of blood to drink. His blood. His love. His warmth. His care. and...it makes me wonder..you know what? I dont mind getting hurt by others if what i'm gonna get in return is Jesus' s restoration of my soul with His own blood. Thank you Jesus. For all that You have done. I love You....please help me through tommorow..You know what i mean..you know how scared i am of that person already...help me through that God..In You I place my confidence. :)
But I know that as long as i continue to place my trust in Him and perservere...i'll be able to overcome this fear...cos my God can do anything...today God gave me an interesting vision..its about these syringes that came rushing towards me..and when they came and peirced me..they began to draw my blood..drawing out my strength..my life...and then..Jesus comes..He starts to heal those wounds and gives me a cup of blood to drink. His blood. His love. His warmth. His care. and...it makes me wonder..you know what? I dont mind getting hurt by others if what i'm gonna get in return is Jesus' s restoration of my soul with His own blood. Thank you Jesus. For all that You have done. I love You....please help me through tommorow..You know what i mean..you know how scared i am of that person already...help me through that God..In You I place my confidence. :)
Sarah Wong
@ 1:34 AM
Ok, didnt blog for quite long....lots of things happened...just didnt have the mood to blog it down for the last few days....well..this week has been quite rough..emotionally..but God helped me through...God made me learn out of what I went through...and..its just amazing how He teaches me...even in a dentist's chair...haha..that was cool..how He gave me a picture while the dentist was injecting me and pulling out my teeth...awesome man!!! on...monday or tuesday I think...God gave me a scene...it was about me and Him on the sea in a boat, and we were fishing..and then i sensed God say that...you know, sometimes its not all about passion, sometimes its also about skill and aiming and listening to where He points so that you know where the fish are..passion can only get you started..but if you dont develop your skill in fishing, if you dont listen to His voice carefully..You're not gonna catch much fish..and..isnt it just like evangelism? Passion will drive you...but..listening to God's voice in my opinion is far more improtant if you wanna reach out effectively...if God have given you this gift of evangelism, then practice and listen, no matter how many times you fail...cos God is in the process of correcting your methods and guiding your hand...so that one day...you will catch a whole SCHOOL of fish:) Then that day...I was facing some conflicts with my friends..and I was really hurt....and i just cried out to God..and God gave me this verse..Hebrews 13:5-6..'..."Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." So we say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper;I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?"' and.. God is so powerful...so so powerful...more powerful than anything that ever lived....GOD YOU ARE AWESOME!!!:D:D:D what I learnt today? Consecration. God gave me one very important point. Jesus' blood is the best detergent that there will ever be. 100% guaranteed to remove all stains...WHOOO!!!! Think your life is so stained that nothing can remove it? Turn to Jesus...He's waiting to wash away those stains with He's very own blood..thats how much He loves you....:):):)
haha, well, i mentioned i went to the dentist...went to pluck out another two teeth...so now ive got four missing teeth, luckily three of them are baby teeth..haha..next thursday is THE day...BRACES...haha...a bit sad...cannot eat all the junk food I like for now...sob..oh welly, porridge is okay...haha, thanks mum for specially cooking all the soft food that i like and chopping it into tiny bits so that i can eat it in:D thank you dad for driving me back from the dentist so that i dont embarrass myself with a cotten guaze thing stuck in my mouth and blood and saliva dripping...heh heh..:D and thank you JESUS for being with me right there beside me next to the dentist's chair...you are awesome...just so awesome Jesus...I love you:)
haha, well, i mentioned i went to the dentist...went to pluck out another two teeth...so now ive got four missing teeth, luckily three of them are baby teeth..haha..next thursday is THE day...BRACES...haha...a bit sad...cannot eat all the junk food I like for now...sob..oh welly, porridge is okay...haha, thanks mum for specially cooking all the soft food that i like and chopping it into tiny bits so that i can eat it in:D thank you dad for driving me back from the dentist so that i dont embarrass myself with a cotten guaze thing stuck in my mouth and blood and saliva dripping...heh heh..:D and thank you JESUS for being with me right there beside me next to the dentist's chair...you are awesome...just so awesome Jesus...I love you:)
Sarah Wong
@ 12:34 AM
JESUS!!!!! YOURE AWESOME!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOO!!!!! Today's concert was seriously...AWESOME. Pure awesomeness of God's presence. I could feel His presence when i stepped into the worship centre during worship..woah, ...87 dedications, about 38 newbelievers. WHOOO!!!!!!JESUS, THANK YOU!!! Thank you for working wonders Lord....You never cease to amaze all of us...I was mostly downstairs and outside the worship centre today doing FTV...and..a big thank you to those who helped out! I could see you guys really gave your best in welcoming the newcomers! Proud of all of you! WHEEEEE.....and God....thank you..for telling me that your grace was sufficent for me...thank you for giving me that verse..1 Corinthians 4-9...to trust in Your strength..even though i was so tired in the morning and had to take care of my project and everything...Lord..thank you for helping me to put my confidence in You...in leading the FV ppl....i can only bow down and say how much I love you...Jesus...You are amazing...:D:D:D
Sarah Wong
@ 12:15 AM
God...i miss her..i miss being with her...and when i talk to her...its tough...i change almost automatically from my crazy usual self to a stiff and formal stranger....its crazy...and its not because i dont like her or anything like that...on the contrary...its just that i dont trust myself anymore...i dont trust what stupid nonsense my mouth can blurt out...Jesus...help me...i wanna be myself but i dont dare to...God...take control of this situation...in You I trust....In Jesus' name i pray, amen:)
PEOPLE OUT THERE!!!! SATURDAY!!! 21st JULY 2007!!! NUBIAN GENTS!!!! AT RIVERLIFE CHURCH WORSHIP CENTRE!!! WHOOOOO!!!! It's gonna be totally awesome man! I know it and i just know it! Cos God's presence is gonna be with us:D that day i was praying ...and i saw this pillar of fire in the middle of worship centre...and from the centre the fire seemed to spread...it wasnt the normal kindof fire...it was more of this spiralling sort of light, running all over in a pillar shape....and i just knew that that was God's holy presence....and He's gonna saturate the worship centre on Saturday!!!! whoo!!!! Cant wait....gonna be a awesome time of serving Him:D:D:D Lord, in whatever we do..please lead and guide all of us...give us the strength and wisdom that we need...Love you Jesus:D
PEOPLE OUT THERE!!!! SATURDAY!!! 21st JULY 2007!!! NUBIAN GENTS!!!! AT RIVERLIFE CHURCH WORSHIP CENTRE!!! WHOOOOO!!!! It's gonna be totally awesome man! I know it and i just know it! Cos God's presence is gonna be with us:D that day i was praying ...and i saw this pillar of fire in the middle of worship centre...and from the centre the fire seemed to spread...it wasnt the normal kindof fire...it was more of this spiralling sort of light, running all over in a pillar shape....and i just knew that that was God's holy presence....and He's gonna saturate the worship centre on Saturday!!!! whoo!!!! Cant wait....gonna be a awesome time of serving Him:D:D:D Lord, in whatever we do..please lead and guide all of us...give us the strength and wisdom that we need...Love you Jesus:D
Sarah Wong
@ 12:24 AM
Woah..today was...woah...ok, when something happens for the third time in two weeks...i seriously dont think its a coincidence...the first time was last week...when i was asked to help interpret a verse... and I heard God's voice speaking and I told her what I sensed He was saying...and it seemed that another person she asked also said around the same lines...second time was on Friday...I interpreted a vision for someone...again I just sensed so strongly that God was saying it...third time...today...I was praying for one of my fellow DG members and I sensed God saying something so strongly that I couldnt shut my mouth...and I knew i just had to tell her what I sensed God was saying...and it really encouraged me because I could see that she was touched when I said what He had to say to her...God..You seriously never cease to amaze me....thank you for answering my prayer today....that You would use me during DG:) and what she said struck me: Sarah..I think that God is preparing you for the prophetic ministry... And just that day Ps Joseph Ong was speaking about Nathan in the bible and how he brought to David God's word...I think it's a really cool gift...but then again...Ps Joseph was saying how people didnt like prophets...because they had to reveal the sins in different lives....and I just sensed God saying to me just now...he was going to use me and with this gift He has given me...he would reveal not only good things....but the evil in people as well....when i was closing my eyes I saw this thing that looked like black ink and it really made me feel uncomfortable and for some reason I just knew that was poison and sin and evil. And I sensed God saying that...that's when I have to start going forth...rebuking evil...to the extend of even casting out demons...and it all sound very far-fetched now..but I know...with God all things are possible...God can use and donkey in the bible and i know God can use me, 151cm tall, small in size compared to everyone else....but I know that as long as I have faith..God can move the mountains....Lord I pray that You will come and develop this gift that You have given me and help me to use it for the sole purpose of bringing You glory....amen:)
Today on the ride home in dad's car...God gave me a picture which i thought was really cool...It started out as i sensed Jesus saying to me: Come, let's take a walk down the beach...and as I closed my eyes, I saw myself walking beside Jesus next to the waves...and I saw footprints behind us...and then the waves washed away the prints...and then I sensed God say... : If you want to be a trail blazer...how can you keep that flame you left behind from extinguishing? And I started to think...I thought of finding ways to make my light brighter...but i knew that even so, some parts of the fire would get snuffed out by the water...and I thought some more...and suddenly..I had it! I could create barriers! Strong barriers that would keep the tide from getting the trail! this way the water will not be able to extinguish the trail of fire that is left behind! and then it hit me: Spiritual Warfare. You wanna be a trail blazer in your school? First go into spiritual warfare...because if you don't...no matter how much impact you leave with your classmates...it it quite easy for the devil to start planting doubts in their minds...its time to go into spiritual warfare people! spiritual WARfare! time to go to WAR!!! Get on the full armour of
God! because its time to slay the dragon and save the prisoners!!! Lord....I pray against everything that satan tries to do in my school...Lord...You are way mightier and way more powerful than he is...I pray for Your protection on myself and all the other warriors of Christ as we go out there and be trail blazers and fight this spiritual battle...Lord, equip us and guard our hearts..in You we trust...WHOO!!!:D In JESUS awesome name, amen!:D:D:D:D
Soccer is fun!!! whee...heading is fun! a bit pain when you use the wrong part of your head and face...but its still so fun! yay! i went a bit high and crazy after soccer, but other than that my head is totally fine:D hahaha....too bad S and W is ending in another two weeks time:( learning soccer is really a great experience...hope that i'll be able to practice my skills after the module ends...
Jesus, I've said this so many times and I'll say this once again.....You never cease to amaze me :)
Today on the ride home in dad's car...God gave me a picture which i thought was really cool...It started out as i sensed Jesus saying to me: Come, let's take a walk down the beach...and as I closed my eyes, I saw myself walking beside Jesus next to the waves...and I saw footprints behind us...and then the waves washed away the prints...and then I sensed God say... : If you want to be a trail blazer...how can you keep that flame you left behind from extinguishing? And I started to think...I thought of finding ways to make my light brighter...but i knew that even so, some parts of the fire would get snuffed out by the water...and I thought some more...and suddenly..I had it! I could create barriers! Strong barriers that would keep the tide from getting the trail! this way the water will not be able to extinguish the trail of fire that is left behind! and then it hit me: Spiritual Warfare. You wanna be a trail blazer in your school? First go into spiritual warfare...because if you don't...no matter how much impact you leave with your classmates...it it quite easy for the devil to start planting doubts in their minds...its time to go into spiritual warfare people! spiritual WARfare! time to go to WAR!!! Get on the full armour of
God! because its time to slay the dragon and save the prisoners!!! Lord....I pray against everything that satan tries to do in my school...Lord...You are way mightier and way more powerful than he is...I pray for Your protection on myself and all the other warriors of Christ as we go out there and be trail blazers and fight this spiritual battle...Lord, equip us and guard our hearts..in You we trust...WHOO!!!:D In JESUS awesome name, amen!:D:D:D:D
Soccer is fun!!! whee...heading is fun! a bit pain when you use the wrong part of your head and face...but its still so fun! yay! i went a bit high and crazy after soccer, but other than that my head is totally fine:D hahaha....too bad S and W is ending in another two weeks time:( learning soccer is really a great experience...hope that i'll be able to practice my skills after the module ends...
Jesus, I've said this so many times and I'll say this once again.....You never cease to amaze me :)
Sarah Wong
@ 12:09 AM
On Sat and Sun Ps Joseph Ong spoke about developing a heart for God....i think the point that struck me most was about God putting us in the desert...and...its tough...its real tough..im still in it....and i wont say im exactly enjoying it...Ps Joseph talked about God refining us in the desert...and how we have to face hardships...failing relationships....disapointments...and..its coming true in my life...about what he talked about...its not easy..no way has it been for the last few months that i spent and am spending in the desert..but you know what? Im not regretting it...cos this experience is so valuable...He's teaching me stuff that i wouldnt have given much thought about..He's moulding my character...shaping me...so that He can use me...and..thank you Lord...for putting me in the desert...thank you for breaking me..Lord...i pray that You will continue to do so...because i wanna be used by You...teach me Your ways....and thank you for putting different people in my life to guide me along...thank you especially for my deer penguin TY...miss penguin....you dont know how much your advice and what you said encouraged me man....thanks for telling me what He put in your heart to say... :) and..to person x....i think you should know who you are...thank you so much...for obeying God's voice and doing what you had to do...i still love you so much... :)
Have you been shot by darts before? not about positions...I'll refer to those by the term 'arrows', but by 'darts' i mean more of involvement in stuff...and this few weeks i was shot with one dart and then a second dart came along and stuck in the exact same spot as the first and i accepted the second dart and forgot to take out the first...so I got into a bit of trouble today...its cleared already but i feel a bit bad about the whole thing...Lord...please teach me responsibility...
Lord, burn in me that desire to never stop craving for You..You're all I need...Help me to be that trail blazer...I long to shine for You....I love You Jesus... :)
Have you been shot by darts before? not about positions...I'll refer to those by the term 'arrows', but by 'darts' i mean more of involvement in stuff...and this few weeks i was shot with one dart and then a second dart came along and stuck in the exact same spot as the first and i accepted the second dart and forgot to take out the first...so I got into a bit of trouble today...its cleared already but i feel a bit bad about the whole thing...Lord...please teach me responsibility...
Lord, burn in me that desire to never stop craving for You..You're all I need...Help me to be that trail blazer...I long to shine for You....I love You Jesus... :)
Sarah Wong
@ 12:13 AM
These two days have been interesting..very interesting...God's been teaching me stuff about discipleship....and...I think that the best thing about disciplehip is that...though it may be tough...though the process is long...but what is rewarding is when your discipler grows spiritually...when the time you have put in pays off and God's glory is shown in that person's life....thats the best part...God....continue to use me to touch others...I wanna make a difference in their lives...because they matter so much to me....teach me Lord...give me wisdom as I lead them closer to You....and God...thank you for the gifts that You have given me...help me to use them as You please....I love You Lord...I commit myself into Your hands once again:)
Sarah Wong
@ 9:14 PM
Sometimes when you feel like giving up on something, its best to seek God and see what He has to say...like today...I was fed-up...i was reminded how ppl got irritated when i practiced the piano...and i felt that i was really rotten at piano and i was having the i-dont-even-know-why-i-should-continue-piano mood...when God started to speak...and it brought tears to my eyes...He said something like this.. "Child..I adore Your worship unto Me...Sarah, I think you're great.." and...wow...can you imagine? The Most High King actually likes how i play the piano...and...you know...it doesnt really matter what others think already...I know I tell myself so many times that I dont care but inside I do...and it really hurts...but now...i dont see any reason to care...not when JESUS says He loves my music....it really doesnt matter what everyone thinks...what He thinks is far more valuable....I love you so much Jesus:) *hugs* He told me to peservere too...and...God I will...I promise...I'll perservere and pass that final exam next year...cos i know you're guiding my fingers as i play....never stop holding me in Your arms Jesus...help me to trust in You completely... :)
Sarah Wong
@ 10:54 PM
God gave me a new song today...
My King:
............F.................C....................G..A....
Jesus Christ, my Lord, my Redemeer
............F...............C......G......
fill me now with joy I pray
.................F......C.........G..........A..
Wash my sins away, cleanse me
.................F.................C.........G.......
So I may serve with all my heart
...............F......
Cos You reign,
..................C.....
most high King,
............G.......................A....
wanna give my life to You
...............F.......
I lift my hands
..............C.....
Use me now
............G......
Lord I pray
.................F......
Take my heart
...............C.......
mould it Lord
...............G..................A....
to be a pleasing sacrifice
................F.....
I live for You,
............C.....
all my days
....G...
Jesus
....G..C....G..A
Jesus, Jesus
...G..C........G....
Jesus, my King
This song is dedicated to all my fellow ushers...Continue to burn so brightly for Him!:) Lord, please help my to put ALL my trust in You...give me the onfidence that I need Lord....
My King:
............F.................C....................G..A....
Jesus Christ, my Lord, my Redemeer
............F...............C......G......
fill me now with joy I pray
.................F......C.........G..........A..
Wash my sins away, cleanse me
.................F.................C.........G.......
So I may serve with all my heart
...............F......
Cos You reign,
..................C.....
most high King,
............G.......................A....
wanna give my life to You
...............F.......
I lift my hands
..............C.....
Use me now
............G......
Lord I pray
.................F......
Take my heart
...............C.......
mould it Lord
...............G..................A....
to be a pleasing sacrifice
................F.....
I live for You,
............C.....
all my days
....G...
Jesus
....G..C....G..A
Jesus, Jesus
...G..C........G....
Jesus, my King
This song is dedicated to all my fellow ushers...Continue to burn so brightly for Him!:) Lord, please help my to put ALL my trust in You...give me the onfidence that I need Lord....
Sarah Wong
@ 8:40 PM
Today during EA worship God gave me one of the best pictures ever....
IMAGINE: Daylight is breaking...you are just a few years old..a child...and you are walking hand and hand with Your father...JESUS. Both of you approach the beach...As the sun rises...you start to build sandcastles...As you laugh, Jesus laughs too...He adds stones to the sides of the structure so that the tide wont erode it away...as the day passes you play with Jesus ...spending the time chasing each other...wadding into the waters...splashing each other...in short, you have great fun with Him...just you and Him...alone on the the beach...as night falls...Jesus teaches you how to light a fire...You look, learning from you heavenly Dad...Jesus asks you to gather some more wood...you go to the trees in the distance alone...but you get scared as you are enshrouded in darkness..you run back..Jesus stands up and takes you by the hand, walking with you towards the darkness once again...your fear leaves you... you walk back to the fire with Jesus after gathering more wood...and throw the pile of wood into the fire...the flames grow brighter...comsuming the wood hungrily...you sit down and snuggle into God's arms...and you start gazing at the stars up in the sky...after a while your eyes start to get heavy and as you sink into Jesus' warm embrace...you fall into a peaceful and contented sleep....
And when I saw that in my mind...i was imagining that I was that child...and i started to realise...you know...God yearns so much for us to draw close to Him...is only whether we are able to make time for Him...God longs to hold and hug us as a father would to his child...and...God thank you for giving me that wonderful picture....to tell me that simple message that You love me:)
Highlife Camp is gonna be awesome! Highlifers! Mark your calendars! 14th-17th Dec! Whooo!!! God you reign:D Thank you for being in our midst today:D:D
IMAGINE: Daylight is breaking...you are just a few years old..a child...and you are walking hand and hand with Your father...JESUS. Both of you approach the beach...As the sun rises...you start to build sandcastles...As you laugh, Jesus laughs too...He adds stones to the sides of the structure so that the tide wont erode it away...as the day passes you play with Jesus ...spending the time chasing each other...wadding into the waters...splashing each other...in short, you have great fun with Him...just you and Him...alone on the the beach...as night falls...Jesus teaches you how to light a fire...You look, learning from you heavenly Dad...Jesus asks you to gather some more wood...you go to the trees in the distance alone...but you get scared as you are enshrouded in darkness..you run back..Jesus stands up and takes you by the hand, walking with you towards the darkness once again...your fear leaves you... you walk back to the fire with Jesus after gathering more wood...and throw the pile of wood into the fire...the flames grow brighter...comsuming the wood hungrily...you sit down and snuggle into God's arms...and you start gazing at the stars up in the sky...after a while your eyes start to get heavy and as you sink into Jesus' warm embrace...you fall into a peaceful and contented sleep....
And when I saw that in my mind...i was imagining that I was that child...and i started to realise...you know...God yearns so much for us to draw close to Him...is only whether we are able to make time for Him...God longs to hold and hug us as a father would to his child...and...God thank you for giving me that wonderful picture....to tell me that simple message that You love me:)
Highlife Camp is gonna be awesome! Highlifers! Mark your calendars! 14th-17th Dec! Whooo!!! God you reign:D Thank you for being in our midst today:D:D
Sarah Wong
@ 12:01 AM
Lord...thank you so much...You have taught me that...i need my friends' support sometimes for stuff to happen...the ice is finally melting...thank you so much Jesus:)
Sarah Wong
@ 11:44 PM
God is teaching me a really tough lesson now...something that i have been struggling since young...its about watching my mouth...sometimes i say really stupid things without even thinking , and when it comes out...the damage is done and there's nothing much i can do to change what i said...Lord...help me to learn and not repeat my mistakes over and over again...
That night when i was closing my eyes I suddenly saw this candle..and beside it was this small bottle which i somehow got the understanding that that was alcohot...and God started to reveal to me...that if you are the light, and you fed yourself with plain water alone...you will extinguish your own flame...however if you pour alcohol over it the flame burns even brighter...and..isnt that the same for our spiritual lives? If we just feed ourselves with what is essential but is plain and does not cause a stirring in our hearts..then sooner or later that flame will just extinguish..but alcohol is strong and powerful...not to say that we should consume alcohol to lead a christian life, on the contrary God says not to indulge ourselves these things...but in reference to the spritual context..i think that God wants us to feed ourselves with things that would stir in us a greater desire to burn for Him...i feel that God wants us to go for things that are life-changing and EXTREME. Cos our God is a EXTREME God. I think its time to be discontented with where we are spiritually..time to stop feeding ourselves with things that would only help us to survive as a christian...but to start wanting to grow so much deeper in Him..to desire for so much more than we are at now spritually..to be RADICAL christians..lets start feeding ourselves with things that would help our flame to burn even brighter for Jesus!:)
Then God gave me another vision of a candle..this time there was this candle in the middle of many papers...and i sensed God telling me that...it is really important where the flame is being lit...if you light the flame and put it on the paper beside the candle, wont the flame consume the papers and candle itself ? Perhaps the flame will not even be able to reach the candle...but if you light the wick of the candle...that candle is gonna shine for all to see....likewise...when we read God's word..when we listen to sermons....when we seek God...does it just create a spark for that moment? Are we lighting up the papers among the candle? Or do we actually catch that word of God and bury it deep in our hearts..lighting up the very middle of the candle..the wick...and cherishing His word so that that candle of ours can burn so brightly for Him?
Then yesterday..God thought me something..sometimes when we honour God, we expect Him to honour us in a way that we want...but yesterday He started to tell me that...you know..sometimes it seems that He isnt honouring us back..but in actual fact he just does it in a different way..a much better way...only we dont see it at first..God..thank you...thank you for what You allowed to happen last night...cos I realised that what happened actually worked out for the best...You are awesome Lord...You are simply AMAZING!!:D
That night when i was closing my eyes I suddenly saw this candle..and beside it was this small bottle which i somehow got the understanding that that was alcohot...and God started to reveal to me...that if you are the light, and you fed yourself with plain water alone...you will extinguish your own flame...however if you pour alcohol over it the flame burns even brighter...and..isnt that the same for our spiritual lives? If we just feed ourselves with what is essential but is plain and does not cause a stirring in our hearts..then sooner or later that flame will just extinguish..but alcohol is strong and powerful...not to say that we should consume alcohol to lead a christian life, on the contrary God says not to indulge ourselves these things...but in reference to the spritual context..i think that God wants us to feed ourselves with things that would stir in us a greater desire to burn for Him...i feel that God wants us to go for things that are life-changing and EXTREME. Cos our God is a EXTREME God. I think its time to be discontented with where we are spiritually..time to stop feeding ourselves with things that would only help us to survive as a christian...but to start wanting to grow so much deeper in Him..to desire for so much more than we are at now spritually..to be RADICAL christians..lets start feeding ourselves with things that would help our flame to burn even brighter for Jesus!:)
Then God gave me another vision of a candle..this time there was this candle in the middle of many papers...and i sensed God telling me that...it is really important where the flame is being lit...if you light the flame and put it on the paper beside the candle, wont the flame consume the papers and candle itself ? Perhaps the flame will not even be able to reach the candle...but if you light the wick of the candle...that candle is gonna shine for all to see....likewise...when we read God's word..when we listen to sermons....when we seek God...does it just create a spark for that moment? Are we lighting up the papers among the candle? Or do we actually catch that word of God and bury it deep in our hearts..lighting up the very middle of the candle..the wick...and cherishing His word so that that candle of ours can burn so brightly for Him?
Then yesterday..God thought me something..sometimes when we honour God, we expect Him to honour us in a way that we want...but yesterday He started to tell me that...you know..sometimes it seems that He isnt honouring us back..but in actual fact he just does it in a different way..a much better way...only we dont see it at first..God..thank you...thank you for what You allowed to happen last night...cos I realised that what happened actually worked out for the best...You are awesome Lord...You are simply AMAZING!!:D
Sarah Wong
@ 12:35 PM
Today God told me that He wanted me to learn how to love His people...and through different situations today He started to teach me how to do so...and....its really not easy...partly cos im quite impatient by nature....and as He started to teach me...i started to discover that I myself am really quite unlovable in some ways...oh man...and then i start to realise...God wont put others down when He's teaching you a lesson, instead He will lift you up till u get a bird's eye view of your own mistakes and make you realise that you seriously need to change in you ways in order to bring Him glory...and .we should love His people...just as He loves us...if He can love us, someone that has sinned against Him and hurt Him so many times...then..shouldnt we follow His example and love EVERY SINGLE PERSON on the face of this earth even if it may seem difficult sometimes? Lord...continue to mould me....shape me into the person that You can use...
Sarah Wong
@ 11:30 PM
GOD I PRAY AGAINST EVERY SINGLE THING THE DEVIL IS TRYING TO DO ON THE MY WHOLE EXTENDED FAMILY ON MY MUM'S SIDE. IN JESUS' NAME I PRAY AMEN. There's no concrete proof on the many things that the devil tried to do, but theres more than enough occurences to safely say that i dont know why, but he's trying to do something...thats good i guess, it shows that he's afraid. HAH! JESUS RULES!!!:D the devil is using people to do so much harm and hurt to us....even i have been affected by it...and i really feel bad for the people he tried to use cos you cant really blame them since they have not known The Light yet.. In Jesus' Name, I pray against any further harm on my family...Lord please send Your angels to protect Sitiawan Po-Po and Gong-Gong especially....Lord, be in control...cos when You are...something happpens in the spiritual realms....now i know one reason why God wanted me to go back to Sitiawan that time....thanks for giving me that chance Lord...Couzies out there...if you read my blog and you know what im talking about, its time to go into spiritual warfare..Lets whack the devil on the head and stomp Him down!!! Whoo!!!
Lord..take charge... :)
Lord..take charge... :)
Sarah Wong
@ 7:53 PM
Ive got this urge right now to evenglise to someone...Lord...let that opportunity come tommorow....In Jesus' Name I pray, Amen:)
Sarah Wong
@ 10:25 PM
God You are awesome....wow...i wanna keep soaking up God's embrace and never stop at it...Lord...teach me...i wanna learn Your ways....I dont wanna let the gifts that You have given me go to waste just like the dirty water running down the canal...instead, let me be that spiritual tap that You can use to heal wounds and speak life into the hurt, the lost, the confused...Lord...thank You for breaking me...thank You for what You are doing in my life...
Today i was kindof asking God to give me a vision for something...and I sensed Him saying: "Why do You yearn for visions? I want to speak to You face to face!" you know...God longs to draw so close to us...and as Ps James Singh said...sometimes its best to stop. Be Still. And Listen. God is speaking. Are You listening? Are you catching that heartbeat of God? I think its time we stopped having that God-is-up-there-and-im-down-here-and-im-too-unworthy-for-Him-to-talk-to mindset...maybe for some of us we just dont trust that He would actually speak to us...i still do sometimes...i tend to doubt His voice...and God i pray that You would remove all doubt in my mind...Lord please let my ears be so sensitive to Your slightest whisper...Cos i wanna be used by You...u know..its time to stop holding back any longer...start craving for more and more of God...who cares what others think? yeah they hurt sometimes, yeah they can put you down...but in the end...isnt God the only one that matters? Isnt God the only one that cares the most about Your relationship with Him? Isnt His unconditional love for you enough to wanna know Him so much more? Lord help me not to be satisfied with where i am....
That day during worship I was telling God how much some stuff hurt me...and...as i closed my eyes I saw God's hand...His nail-pierced hands...and i sensed Hime saying: I know how you feel....They too have done it to me... woah tat just hit me hard...God knows...isit that awesome? God went through so much...He knows when You hurt...cos He's been hurt so many times by His own creation...and i believe...God wants to prove to us that He can give us that strength that we need to get through the pain and come out stonger...No hurt is too deep for God to heal...lets believe and claim that in Jesus mighty name:) God You reign:D
Today i was kindof asking God to give me a vision for something...and I sensed Him saying: "Why do You yearn for visions? I want to speak to You face to face!" you know...God longs to draw so close to us...and as Ps James Singh said...sometimes its best to stop. Be Still. And Listen. God is speaking. Are You listening? Are you catching that heartbeat of God? I think its time we stopped having that God-is-up-there-and-im-down-here-and-im-too-unworthy-for-Him-to-talk-to mindset...maybe for some of us we just dont trust that He would actually speak to us...i still do sometimes...i tend to doubt His voice...and God i pray that You would remove all doubt in my mind...Lord please let my ears be so sensitive to Your slightest whisper...Cos i wanna be used by You...u know..its time to stop holding back any longer...start craving for more and more of God...who cares what others think? yeah they hurt sometimes, yeah they can put you down...but in the end...isnt God the only one that matters? Isnt God the only one that cares the most about Your relationship with Him? Isnt His unconditional love for you enough to wanna know Him so much more? Lord help me not to be satisfied with where i am....
That day during worship I was telling God how much some stuff hurt me...and...as i closed my eyes I saw God's hand...His nail-pierced hands...and i sensed Hime saying: I know how you feel....They too have done it to me... woah tat just hit me hard...God knows...isit that awesome? God went through so much...He knows when You hurt...cos He's been hurt so many times by His own creation...and i believe...God wants to prove to us that He can give us that strength that we need to get through the pain and come out stonger...No hurt is too deep for God to heal...lets believe and claim that in Jesus mighty name:) God You reign:D
Sarah Wong
@ 9:11 PM
Whoo! Yesterday was...WHOO!! ok lemme start from before service...hey there...im sorry i was kindof uncooperative when we met...its just that..i dont feel like saying anything cos of our distance..im really sorry..will try very hard to improve...
Then service...WAS POWER!!!! seriously...man..Pastor James Singh started preaching and i could actually already feel the holy spirit stirring in me...then altar call! whoo! haha! people started falling on other ppl...the ushers were trying to lay them properly so they wouldnt crush one another! haha! me? i was blanketing as usual...heh heh...that fear still exists about getting crushed even though Cord taught us a really good method for catching ppl...anyways..ran around blanketing ppl...blankets were used up so fast! haha! then Cord got Ps James Singh to pray for us! haha...when he prayed for me the holy spirit didnt move very strongly this time, it was more of the sweet gently flowing kind, the make-you-cry kind...so of cos i started crying...then Tian Ying came and sat down beside me and put one arm around me..then she told me something that resulted me having the how-on-earth-did-you-know-that reaction...she told me later that she was just very led to say what she told me...oh man...God...thank you so so much..for sending different ones at the exact right moment.....God, You will never ever ever cease to amaze me...you know...helping out at altar calls to me is sometimes as good as responding to it...cos you get to see God's power moving across the altar...and you're able to feel God's presence all over the altar...its a seriously wonderful experience... :D
Then service...WAS POWER!!!! seriously...man..Pastor James Singh started preaching and i could actually already feel the holy spirit stirring in me...then altar call! whoo! haha! people started falling on other ppl...the ushers were trying to lay them properly so they wouldnt crush one another! haha! me? i was blanketing as usual...heh heh...that fear still exists about getting crushed even though Cord taught us a really good method for catching ppl...anyways..ran around blanketing ppl...blankets were used up so fast! haha! then Cord got Ps James Singh to pray for us! haha...when he prayed for me the holy spirit didnt move very strongly this time, it was more of the sweet gently flowing kind, the make-you-cry kind...so of cos i started crying...then Tian Ying came and sat down beside me and put one arm around me..then she told me something that resulted me having the how-on-earth-did-you-know-that reaction...she told me later that she was just very led to say what she told me...oh man...God...thank you so so much..for sending different ones at the exact right moment.....God, You will never ever ever cease to amaze me...you know...helping out at altar calls to me is sometimes as good as responding to it...cos you get to see God's power moving across the altar...and you're able to feel God's presence all over the altar...its a seriously wonderful experience... :D
haha...God's very interesting...He uses bus rides and waiting for the bus to teaching me lots of lessons...one that occured very recently is waiting for the bus...it happened four times so far, i would pray something like this: "Dear God, please help the bus to come now Lord...." and the when i prayed finished, or even halfway through my prayer, i would see the bus come in view..like almost instantly kind...then that day..the third time it happened..as i was going up the steps of the bus i sensed God saying this to me: " why are you so impressed by this? Don't you know I can do much greater things?" and it really hit me...you know, sometimes we are so thankful and happy over the small things that God does for us..i mean, theres nothing wrong with that, in fact we should thank God for all these blessings...but...I think its time to look at bigger stuff...i think its time to expect something greater from God...cos our God is a BIG God! How big? Well, He created the universe, thats how big! He created everything! and I think its time we put our faith and trust in Him for BIGGER revalations, BIGGER visions, BIGGER dreams...i think its time to rise up and be that person of influence that understands that authority that God has placed in our hands...lets not degrade God to a God that can only do so much...lets start to trust in Him for the BIG things that go beyond our imgination:D Lord...please give me that faith to believe all those visions that You have placed in my heart will come to past....
Today something interesting happened..again when i was waiting for the bus...and...i feel really really bad cos i didnt obey...I heard God's voice and i started to doubt...cos what He asked me to do really needed lots of courage...and i didnt listen...that fear just came over me...and man did i feel so rotten after that...i did repent and everything andGod says He's gonna give me another chance, so...Lord...give me that boldness and remove all fear Lord...I need Your strength.....
Just something to think about: What are you gonna do with that power that God has placed in your hands? Will you stuff it in your pocket? Or will you use it to bless someone else? " Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house." - Matthew 5:15 (NIV)
Sarah Wong
@ 10:15 AM