[[ LIVING FOR JESUS ]]

[About Me]

Name: Sarah
Loves: JESUS!!! Family, Megalife, Ushering, Friends, Being lame and crazy, reaching out to lost souls
B'day: 17 March 1990

[ my paths]

August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 April 2008

[FRIENDS]

ESPECIALLY FOR: MY DEAR FRIENDS OF 4E, 1A02 AND ALL NON- CHRISTIANS OUT THERE IMAGINE: You are walking in a desert...perspiration drenches your face..the sunlight pierces through your skin, at times blinding you..the stiffling heat is overbearing, and as you drag your tired self on, suffering of thrist and hunger, and you wonder why you bother to continue living..life to you has become meaningless.. its all a vicious cycle...you walk aimlessly and endlessly, just to find yourself following your own footprints of the previous day..serveral vultures trail behind you, their glare is fixed on you...you cry out in agony, but not one seems to hear or see you..all hope to you is lost... Or so it seems.. Suddenly, you see a trickle of water flowing right beneath your feet..could it be? you wonder whether it is a mirage, but as the trickle turns into a small stream, you start to believe, and you follow that stream...and as the stream gets wider, you see a shape in the distance..you start running to it, and what lies before you is a mountain in all its splendour. Out of this mountain flows streams of fresh spring water. You drink from the stream, and the water is as sweet as ever. The vultures disappear..You stare in amazement..how could it be? But the mountain still stands there, as majestic as ever... Do you believe? Do you believe that just as there was a mountain in the desert, God can do the impossible? Do you believe that just as fresh spring water flowed out of the mountain, God is giving you an opputunity to drink from His well? Do you believe that just as how all hope is lost in the dersert, God has put that mountain of hope to restore your broken life and give you the hope that you need to start life afresh? Do you believe that God can erase that past that huants you, just as vultures do in a dersert, and give you a new life? Do you believe? Believe it. Believe that God is real. Because in John chp 3:16 it says:" For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." God loves you so much, that he sent his son to die for YOU. Believe that God can do the impossible. Because in Isaiah 49:19 it says;" See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not percieve it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland." Believe that God wll always be there for you, through the thick and thin. because in Psalms chp 23:4 it says:" Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me." Believe it. Now you have a choice. The mountain represents God. He will always be there when things seem impossible to solve. Now you can choose to run to that mountain where you can seek shelter from, or you can just treat it as a mirage. The choice is yours. If you have chose to believe that God is real, and you believe that Jesus came down and died on the cross to take away your sins and then rose again, say this with all your heart: " Dear Jesus, I believe you are tha Son of God and that you gave your life as a payment for the sins of mankind. I believe you rose from the dead and you are alive today in heaven preparing a place for those who trust in you. I have not lived in a way that honours you. Please forgive me for my sins and come into my life as Saviour and Lord. Help me grow in knowledge and obedience to you. Thank you for forgiving me. Thank you for coming into my life. Thank you for giving me eternal life. Amen." ( prayer taken from stories for the extreme teen's heart) If you prayed that prayer, CONGRATULATIONS, the angels are rejoicing in heaven now. If you have not, God will always be waiting for you to accept Him:)

[[ John 3:16 ]]
For God so loved the world that
he gave his one and only Son,
that whoever believes in him
shall not perish but have eternal life.

[[ John 14:6 ]]
Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life.
No one comes to the Father except through me.

[[ John 8:32 ]]
Then you will know the truth,
and the truth will set you free.

He l[0]ves yo~~[u]~~*.

[ LIVING FOR JESUS ]

I found my hiding place in school...the crusade room...that place rocks, its the only place that i can be my true self without being critcised or smirked at...thank you Jesus for crusaders...dunno wad i'll do without them...and that room where i can run to You so freely..am i really a last minute person? No. I'm not. there's a reason why im so last minute sometimes. It shows that i dont wanna complete that task cos i dread it and i have doubts on doing it, not because im usually a last minute person cos im very sure that im not. Sometimes ppl need to ask WHY. im learning that to. Theres a reason for every action, every behaviour, in my opinion. So instead of jumping into conclusions and labelling a person lets help that person out by remembering that there is an underlying reason for that action and it is usually not what we think it means....God...help me to find that JOY in You..cos God, i think its gonna be a tough term in terms of relationships in ECH....I need You Jesus..

Sarah Wong @ 10:09 PM

Interesting. How God works in super interesting ways. Wow. All i can say is..thank you Daddy...I love you :) Oh for those who are wondering wad decision i made bout my piano...got my Daddy in Heaven's advice an..yeah im sticking to piano...yupyup...striving on...which reminds me i better go practice..yupyup...service later! disciplsehip later! God...please grant me wisdom...In Jesus' name i pray Amen:):):)

Sarah Wong @ 11:05 AM

The pros and cons of quitting piano today:

Pros:
-no more nagging from ppl bout practising
-no more feeling insecure bout my short fingers and under-fleshy tips of my fingers cos they are highly irritating in grade 8
-time saved, used to play worship songs instead (whoo!)
-no more feeling like a failure in this area since im not striving to do well and beat others etc....nvm..shant say it here
-no more worrying bout having to pass grade 8 since im not allowed to take it again if i fail
-no more dwelling in the fact that i STINK at piano as according to some ppl
-no need to wear a skirt or dress for exam!!! (okay thats a stupid pro)
-save money (alot of money leh..)

Cons:
-I might regret this decsision someday
-my final grade to take leh....
-i really love piano....i think...at least i love the partwhere i bang the piano with praises unto God...but quitting wont affect that unless my piano is taken away..quite impossible since my bro also plays it for fun sometimes
-getting nagging from others for making wad seems like a stupid decision
- might affect if i ever wanna teach piano next time
-might acty make my self-esteem worse if i see this as a 'failure' in life

As can see, there are more pros than cons here...lol...should i quit? i really cannot stand wad im going through already..prob everybody will say its stupid to even think of quitting now since im at my last grade...erm, hello, wait till youre in my position then tell me whether you feel like quitting.....but then again, my pros are mainly stuff that i wanna run away from...this reminds me of badminton....almost the same kind of reasons that made me quit sch team....but then i didnt suffer much after that...and i guess cos God really did ask me to quit...so..thats that..God..should i? quit? theres a time not to and a time to quit...you said it yourself..is this the time to quit? or should i press on like everybody's telling me since its the more sensible choice? decisions decisions...i dont wanna make the wrong decision again...help me God...i need to hear from You first...lead me to the right answer God...in Jesus name i pray, amen.

Sarah Wong @ 2:10 PM

Why. Why is it that the pain just comes and keeps on trashing me about..reminding me of the past..why...everytime...every week i just have to be reminded of something..of something so precious that i used to have...yet...why...God...help me..i dont know how long more i can go on like that...im trying..so desperately..to find friends..yet no matter how hard i try...what i try seems to fail..why....of all things...i struggle wif relationships..the most important thing that i think life's about..relationships...Made for a relationship with You...made for friendships with others...born out of a relationship...just like what pastor said...isit that wad life's about? relationships? isnt that the calling You gave me? to lead ppl towards a relationship wif You? Then..why? God....i hate my attitude..i hate t when im insecure and oversensitive and that i get upset so easily..i hate the fact that...i seem to be a failure at relationships...but God...only one thing matters...as long as our relationship is secure, i know that I have nothing to worry God...my security lies in You...I never wanna forget that...place that truth deep in my heart God...my security is in You....no matter what others say...Jesus, You'll always be my best friend...I need You so much...Jesus fill up that emptyness in me that seems so overbearing sometimes...I love You Daddy :)

Sarah Wong @ 10:23 PM

I cannot believe myself...i can't even trust myself...why must i have to be such a crummy friend?!?!??! God..im sorry:(

Sarah Wong @ 9:38 PM

THIS SONG IS SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO 1A02:

Don't Cry Child
Verse 1
See that cross,
See that cross on Calvary,
See that cross,
My blood shed for your sin.
See that cross,
Come and meet with me,
See that cross,
I long to to be with you.

Verse 2
Take my hand
I'll walk with you each day
Take my hand,
pierced for you dear child

Chorus
Child don't cry,
I know your hurt and pain
Child dont cry,
I'll never let you go
Child dont cry,
they've done the same to me
Child dont cry
I LOVE YOU.

I composed this song specially for 1A02 and whoever else who might be feeling down rite now...This is what I felt Jesus wanted to say to all of you guys...that He understands your hurt...and He wants to walk with you through everything you go through...so today I ask you...will you let Him hold your hand? :)

Sarah Wong @ 10:09 PM

Dum dee dum dum....bored here...or more like, dont wanna do the stuff i have to do..hee hee...will do them later....so i shall be random now...my water babies died:( quite a long time ago acty...haha, i needa ask my little couz for more:D but we stay very far apart..boo hoo...why must all my cousins stay so far away? Either they're in Bukit Timah or in Malaysia...sigh.. Brendon Kor Kor is getting married soon! yay....happy for him...maybe can add a few more to my 'grandcousins' list..hahaha....but wedding dinner= dress up and I DONT WANNA DRESS UP!!! Im very happy in jeans and polo thank you very much..hahahaha..my mum will just kill me if i went to his dinner liddat...dum dee dum...i miss soccer..anybody wanna play soccer???? Hols ending soon...didnt really have time to exercise this hols..didnt play badminton..nobody to play soccer with...or rather, no girls to play soccer with...T.U.T camp was good..did i mention that? hah i think i did...Yay..my mum agreed to watch Underdog with meee...yayyy..i wonder whether its still showing..haha...you know, ppl should really watch wad they say sometimes, including myself..haha...ok, lemme make it clear here the diff between childish and childlike...childish is teenagers trying to act like kids and failing and acting stupid in the process, childlike is the child in you wanting to express itself and there is nothing stupid bout it..so lets say i like stuff toys ( which i really do) ..that doesnt make me childish...its cos i really like it and the 'child' in me is expressing this desire...BUT lets say i act cute to get attention, now that is being childish cos we know that if a child is cute then he would get attention and hence we subconciously do the same with the motive to gain attention...but if we are cute cos we are naturally 'cute' in that sense and have no intention of gaining attention then that is of course being childlike...btw this is not coming from me, this is coming from wad i learnt in early childhood..hhahahaa....ok im starting to rant here..dum dee dum...WORSHIP XPERIENCE TML!!!! whoo...gonna be an awesome time...not too sure how ushering will go..God i surrender everything thats gonna happen during ushering tml...God..You take control..i think Megalife's breaking into a new level...so cool...dum dee dum dum...ok my room's in a big big mess..better start clearing...Our God Reigns by Delirious keeps on playing in my mind...God You Reign...and I pray that You'll reign in tml's worship experience...cos as long as Your presence is with us..I know there's gonna be a brekthrough..Our God reigns...i love you Daddy:)

Sarah Wong @ 2:38 PM

Back from T.U.T camp! hahaha...it was really fun...and i got to know the other crusaders so muc better...real cool...I guess the best thing bout the camp was that we played underground church and...just a lot of stuff brought out and you could really see fellowship and unity after the whole thing...I mean, i played similar kinds of games before where they would 'torture' you but yet i learnt something..God spoke into my heart, abt how real this could be when i started my calling...and i guess this kindof freak me out at frst..i mean, imagine the fear that you would be living in constantly...its crazy..but...after talking it through wif others and just dwelling in His presence...I know that my God is not a God of fear..My God will always be right beside me, no matter wad i go through..and no matter wad happens, I wanna delare that He is still my Lord, my Saviour...God..please give me that strength and courage to stand up and be strong, cos im not only standing up for my faith, im standing up for You, my best friend....and..God I love You...and the song More Than Life..by United Live..just kept ringing through my head..." I love You..more than Life".. more than life itself...not so much of more than facing death, for that is quick, but more than facing torture upon torture...and God, I just pray..just one thing that I ask for, that I will remain strong and will not deny You..cos I know if I do, that relationship will be cut off forever...Oh God..Jesus...I love You...so so much...God You were amazng during camp, just so amazing..Rain down God....Rain down...I love You Daddy:)

Sarah Wong @ 7:50 PM